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what if I don't want to be saved? [Jun. 16th, 2009|03:31 am]
[mood | nostalgic]
[music |Rough Landing Holly/Afraid - Yellowcard]

I was way overdue for one of these. I'm not sure what I've been doing lately, but everything kind of just feels off no matter what anymore. I have no idea what I really want anymore and I have no idea how to go about spending my summer. All of the opportunities readily available to me are the one's I don't want and the few things I know that I want are completely out of my reach. I'm not in a bad mood, I just feel as if I'm not really doing anything. I've been really happy with the music I've written the past few days and the directions I'm starting to take, hopefully my life can follow the same kind of path. Some days I really miss highschool. The people the things, the feelings, everything. The most insignificant thing could mean the world to you (for better or for worse), and everything was an adventure. Now everything is kind of turning into a long routine with minor deviations every now and then. I miss having a girlfriend, and all the little things associated with it. Calling someone just to say I love you, or knowing that no matter how crappy a day may be you have someone to lay down with and talk about it with as soon as you get off work. Having someone to walk around the the park with holding hands, or kiss on a playground at 2 am. Having someone who you can just sit with and not say anything and simply enjoy a country drive without the silences being awkward. Most people are too busy to love anymore, or think it isn't for them right now. Unfortunatly for me I'm one of the few people who just wants that more than anything.

Ha reading back on this I realize that it is extremely lame, but I felt like saying something to someone. Goodnight =)
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Stolen from Julia [Oct. 23rd, 2007|09:42 pm]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |I'm Like John Cusack - We Are The Union]

10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. We Are the Union
2. Streetlight Manifesto
3. Taking Back Sunday
4. All Time Low
5. Less Than Jake
6. Mustard Plug
7. Donner Party Of Five
8. Fall Out Boy
9. Catch-22
10. First Grade Crush

09 things you look forward to:
1. Playing a show saturday
2. Hobgob if i make it back in time
3. Playing Creepy Crawl
4. Wise and Burn show (possibly)
5. Misfits show
6. Motion City Soundtrack/Mae/Anberlin
7. Graduating
8. Indiana University (hopefully)
9. Leaving this town

8 things you like to wear:
1. Dpo5 shirt
2. my pavorite pair of pants that i wear every day
3. grey hoodie
4. button up shirt
5. park shirt
6. brown striped polo
7. all white moccasons
8. deklines

07 people you want to spend more time with:
1. Brandon
2. Tyler
3. Mike
4. Alan
5. Liz
6. Tim
7. Nick

06 things you say most days:
1) "I'm awesome"
2) "Cheese It!"
3) "Skin it!"
4) "Oh Snap!"
5) "Switzer"
6) "Muff"

05 things you do everyday:
1. Sleep.
2. Guitar.
3. Music.
4. Be awesome.
5. Text.

04 things that annoy you:
1. J-Bags
2. Stupid drama
3. Shitty bands who think they're good
4. Dumb people, especially those who don't know their shoe size

03 movies you could watch over and over again:
1. EUROTRIP
2. Stranger Than Fiction
3. Almost Famous

02 of your tv shows at the moment:
1. The Office
2. Family Guy

01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. You know

.FIRSTS.
First best friend: Mike or Tyler
First car: 1994 Toyota Camery Station Wagon
First date: Julia
First real kiss: Julia?
First break-up: none really
First screen name: bullmeister or something equally badass
First self purchased album: N*Sync
First funeral: Not sure, that's probably bad
First pets: fishies
First piercing/tattoo: none
First true love: music
First enemy: good question, no idea, dont have any
First big trip: Omaha or Bermuda, if Omaha doesn't count
First musician you remember hearing in your house: The Rolling Stones

.LASTS.
Last cigarette: never
Last car ride: tonight
Last kiss: today
Last good cry: eh
Last library book checked out: no clude
Last movie seen: Superbad
Last beverage drank: Orange juice
Last food consumed: toast
Last crush: And current, Molly
Last phone call: This evening
Last time showered: yesterday
Last shoes worn: Deklines
Last cd played: Taking Back Sunday
Last item bought: Food
Last annoyance: drama
Last disappointment: eh
Last time wanting to die: fuck that noise
Last time scolded: no idea
Last shirt worn: brown striped polo
Last website visited: U of I admissions

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God Dammit Livejournal [Oct. 17th, 2007|09:08 pm]
[music |Taking Back Sunday]

why do you keep entries forever

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Direction [Jul. 4th, 2007|02:02 am]
[Current Location |Home Sweet Home]
[mood | amazing]
[music |I Could Be Wrong - The Starting Line]

I haven't updated this thing in forever.
I have alot to say.
The new Starting Line cd is amazing.
Buy it when it comes out.
A massive update tommorow.
Emphasis on massive.
I love you all.
Goodnight.
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Meow [Jun. 5th, 2007|08:38 am]
[Current Location |home, for a little]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |Amber Pacific]

If I don't pick up my phone for 11 or so days, I'm not ignoring you, and we'll kick it sometime after the 15th. =). So leave me lots of fun messages!

<3 everyone

P.S. Come to the show the 24th!
The Junior Varsity (Cinematographic cd release)
The Graduate
Fayette
and some others?
Ask someone in my band about tickets, we should have them soon.

once again, I love you all. Peace.
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Life is good =) [May. 30th, 2007|08:04 pm]
[Current Location |homeee]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |It Won't Snow (cd) - Park]

Yesterday was just my day. I got a 31 on the ACT (35 on the science section!!), went to my interview, got a job, and possibly more good news to come(?). I have to take most of my finals, tommorow just AP History, Friday just AP Chem (which I guess is just a ksp quiz?, lol), but then Pre-calc and Lit on Monday. Oh, and then summer. Oh, and I go to Europe tuesday. I'm really fucking excited. I'll miss everyone, but then again how many times do I get to go to england, france, and rome? =). I'm taking summer school photography with a bunch of people, so that should be fun too. And if you need shoes go to Journeys on Saturday, I work 5-9. And maybe 5-9 Friday, but idk, Sam still hasn't called me back. I'm just really happy right now. But I should probably continue to get my study on after this breif interruption. Keep it real, <3.
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Day Two of Photography [May. 19th, 2007|11:09 am]
[Current Location |home]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |When Stars Collide - Go Crash Audio]



This one came out pretty well, except that people kept walking by while it was exposing. Oh well, it happens. My other two didn't turn out at all, which is really wierd. But that's the way the cookie crumbles. Call me to kick it this weekend.

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(no subject) [May. 17th, 2007|07:04 pm]
[Current Location |home]
[mood | alright]
[music |St Louis - The Junior Varsity]

Pictures )

Took those on a camera made out of a popcorn tin, I think they came out pretty cool. 60 seconds with Zack and Emma standing there then 30 more without, I probably should have had them stay a little longer, the ghost is really transparent. Oh well, I think it's pretty good for my first picture. Some ho ruined my second one by opening the darkroom door while I was loading film, but oh well, it happens. Expect more.
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No Signal [May. 10th, 2007|12:53 am]
[Current Location |Home]
[mood | nostalgic]
[music |No Signal]

Tonight's a No Signal night for me. That means something different for everyone, which is why it's an amazing cd. So many people relate it to such different things. I miss park.
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This is what it feels like to be in heaven [May. 4th, 2007|03:06 am]
[Current Location |Home Sweet Home]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |The Sound Of Settling - String Quartet Tribute to Death Cab]

I love everything about life right now. Either it's the 3 am talking or I'm in heaven. Everything's perfect. Brandon and I spent the last 6 hours or so finishing up the Midnight Fall cd, it's a good feeling to finally be done. Today Molly and I have been going out three months, so we're going out to dinner before the show (last Evolution Via Machine Gun show). Saturday i have the SAT, then the last Midnight Fall and Park show :(. I'm going to miss those bands. I can't really describe how I feel right now. Pretty much pure bliss mixed with extreme tiredness sums it up. Goodnight =)
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I love my life... bitches [Apr. 16th, 2007|09:07 pm]
[Current Location |Home sweet home]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |7 Weeks - Gym Class Heroes]

I love life. Everything and everyone in it. Fayette's fun. We may not be that great but I like it. Played Jacksonville Saturday, that was fun. We were kinda horrible but after much reflecting I've realized that I loved every minute of it. I'm just really excited about everything right now. Assassins should be fun, Austin and I stalked someone for an hour or so today, then got someone completely different out. A waste of time, but at the same time not at all. Fayette show Friday in Roodhouse maybe? I'm not sure, hopefully though. Meow. I don't have too much to say, besides that Gym Class, Sum 41, and The Mighty Mighty Bosstones is the best combination ever.


Wild'n Out on a level Nick Cannon couldn't comprehend...

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God damn it's great to be alive... [Mar. 18th, 2007|08:43 pm]
[Current Location |home]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |This Is To Fire - The Graduate]

This weekend was pretty frickin' amazing. Friday P-tay Tim and I went to Chicago for Anti-Flag and Big D. Show was awesome, but the crowd were the biggest j-bags I'd ever encountered in my life. And the pits were really weak, I was very dissapointed. Anyways. Saturday woke up, had to do random shit in chicago until like 2, and got back at 6. Went to Mikes, ran through the set once, and off to the show it was. Parking was rediculous. Show was fun, we kinda sucked but oh well, it was fun. Aftwerwards went to Mollys for a little bit, then Dennys, then Joes for a party. It was really random, but pretty fun at the same time. Got to see a bunch of people I never do anymore, and gave Richard Corey and David rides home, then to Mikes house and to sleep. Woke up at 11, came home, took a shower, errands for mom, hung out with Molly, picked up Mal for a little bit, took her to work, back to Mollys, hme, dinner, worked out, showered, lj. Tada.
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(no subject) [Mar. 14th, 2007|09:10 pm]
[music |Every Blink-182 song ever]

This is me taking a break from the rediculous amount of homework I have to say that Blink-182 has been my favorite band for longer than I can really rememeber, for more reasons than I care to remember or to list. I just thought I'd let you guys in on that.

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(no subject) [Mar. 13th, 2007|11:13 am]
[Current Location |home]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |Semi-Charmed Life - Third Eye Blind]

So apparently I have pinkeye? lol. Oh well, it happens, right? Anyways. I'm going to War Sucks, Lets Party in Chitown on Friday with Patia and Tim, that should be fricken awesome. Anti-Flag and Big D *feints*. Anyways. Fayette show saturday with Brandon, Vandalia, and Geisert 8 Band. Vandalias the shit, if you don't come for us or Brandon go for them, it'll be tight. And we're playing a new song, yayyyy. Well, that's all I have to say for now, call or text to entertain me today and maybe tommorow. :)
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What this is to me is more than words could mean... [Mar. 11th, 2007|08:56 pm]
[mood | chipper]
[music |The Starting Line]

Today was a good day. Watched 311 videos with Brandon, Nikki, and Kristin, went out to dinner with the family, and went on a walk in the park then drove around with Molly. I love that girl. I've been in rediculously good moods lately, and I'm finally becoming content with every little aspect of my life. I love my friends, my family, this world and all the people in it. This weekend was a great one, and I hope there are alot more like it. I don't have a way with words and I'm not going to pretend I do, so instead of going on a 10 paragraph binge and not making sense, as I've been know to do, I'll just qoute the Starting Line.


"All this time, I'm loving life"
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(no subject) [Mar. 5th, 2007|11:19 am]
[Current Location |666 Memory Lane]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |The Mark, Tom, and Travis Show]

I love the world and everyone in it.
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Listening to rock'n'roll while the city sleeps [Feb. 22nd, 2007|03:04 am]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |A Good Night's Sleep - The Starting Line]

"God damn it's great to be alive"
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meow [Jan. 21st, 2007|05:47 pm]
[Current Location |home]
[mood | apathetic]
[music |Best Of Me (acoustic) - The Starting Line]

meow


- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 

i love molly

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We will drive, we can't fly... [Jan. 3rd, 2007|03:49 am]
[Current Location |home]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |APR - The Forecast]

Every ending is nothing but a new, brighter beginning, a chance to start over, plan things out, and have everything work out just as you intend. A time when the world is your cupcake and nothing can go wrong or stop you from achieving your goals. I need to meet new people, different people from different places, who couldn't be any happier than they are when they're playing an instrument. My best friends say that my grin gets bigger and bigger the higher I'm playing on the fretboard, or when I hear something truly awe-inspiring. I try to hide it, since I probably look like a retard, but I can't, those are the times when I'm truly happy and at peace with the world.  Right now I feel amazing; I can't even begin to describe it. I want to play the music that makes kids like me pick up a guitar and hope to someday bring others some of the same joy that their favorite songs bring to them. We as kids have so many opportunities available to us, and I'm not about to let any of those opportunities pass me by. Be it now or in a few years, I want to be playing the music I love with people I love for people who love that music, and maybe change a few peoples outlook on life along the way. I want to give people hope, hope for a better tomorrow, as so many others have given me. I want to put the warmth of summer, the beauty of spring, and a night under the stars with the one you love into songs that will make people see how great the world and the people in it truly are. Our world is full of beauty and love, be it in a song, picture, flower, sunset, your closest friends, or in the eyes of that one person you can't live without. Love is everywhere in one form or another; you just have to open your eyes to see it. I love you all, and I hope that all of your dreams become realities, never to fade away, and that we never lose touch, despite the time and the distance that may separate us in the future. Goodnight, and goodluck.

"So my heart beats on time"

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Crack rock steady [Dec. 30th, 2006|06:14 am]
[Current Location |home sweet home]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |Sit And Sink - The Graduate]

About how I can go to a Timmys show and not know a single person there except nan and julia, having been going to them since middle school. What happened to everyone who used to go to shows. It's truely a shame. Anyways. "that beat the ditch" ~ pretty much sums it up. Meow. I have nothing more to say to you, livejournal, so goodnight.

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